In Search of...Normalcy

These last few weeks have gone by in a blur...literally. I do not sleep at a regular time, and when I wake up I tend to take an early morning nap.

But would I change it for something more schedule like...probably not. All the connections and socializing that make the world go round takes place after dark. It is hard to imagine making any real headway in getting to know people when you have a 10pm curfew looming. That is what I tell myself. However, with the body getting older and the liver getting weaker, perhaps it is time for me to call this one a loss and do what I can to take a change of pace as a good thing?

The problem is also that there is so much on my to-do list that I am ignoring...that it just piles and piles and piles. Such is the life of a _______, and so the search for time continues.

And now, off to the next adventure.

(tidbit- she told me that I could call her as a bootycall. FTW )

2 Years.- In search of Time.

It has been two years since leaving this space to try other things. It has worked.

Today, I am sitting in my office (still in the Middle East), watching Al-Jazeera as they describe how Egypt 'MAY' get a new government and Mubarak 'MAY' be out shortly.

Talk about a revolution...

It is televised.

But, welcome back me.
And, welcome back you.

In Search Of....it All.

And....done.

Thanks everyone. Its been real.

I am going to take a hiatus from this blog because...well, my life is starting to be mundane as hell. I am not content. And until I can actually start living the life of excitement that I romanticize about, there is no point in frustrating myself in wishing that I was 'there' right now. Or with 'her'. Or doing 'that'. And writing about it makes me more and more upset that Im stuck in this rut.

So, im throwing out all plans, and seeing where things will go. I hope that takes me to Brazil or somewhere else where (non-kidnapping) adventures occur all of the time.

Ill still read your blogs.


I can still be reached at itmeansunique@gmail.com . Thanks for reading.

So yes.
Good Bye.
Until Later.

Vicky Christina Barcelona

This is an interesting film, and it has me thinking about last night.
The movie is only 20 minutes in, and already i can tell I like the characters. 2 women go away to Barcelona for a summer. They meet a guy (a painter) who takes them on a random trip.

I love it.

Last night I met a couple who was visiting our bar. We were chatting and it came out that he was from Lebanon. Upon which I shouted how much I LOVE Beirut. Apparently, this is the best thing that I could have said, because after some conversation, we agreed to continue our dialogue and pretty much we agreed to converse about me working for their company. Based out of Lebanon, and traveling the region to do different projects, M&E....

Are you kidding me. This is like THE best news that I have heard in a very long time.
I mean, even with my pending career changing interview in exactly 20 days, I am still looking at other options... always looking at other options.

Well, such is the way of the world. The film is 54 minutes in. Penelope Cruz is in it. So that means that this has film has jumped to my top four...because Penelope...is kind of my prototype.

At least the characters that she has played.

Living in Beirut was a dream of mine that developed since the second I got off of the plane there. And the week just kept on getting better, and better, and better. And the culture, and the people that I met, and the life, and the parties, and the beaches...and the spirit of life.

While there I met some amazing artists. Photographers, painters, movie directors, art house curators, writers, actors...wow. So naturally, I was inclined to just pack up and go to art school there.
And then there was this picture that I saw. One of the creative types that I met there had taken a picture that she took of herself at 8:15 am while still lazing around in bed. It was beautiful. And there I went romanticizing about this ideal of waking up to an adventure everyday...starting with that early glimpse of life in her eyes.

Its not so much the job, or the exciting feeling of the place, its the newness. It is the not knowing. it is the feeling that tomorrow is different from today.
The world....

A day off

Ive decided that today is going to be my day off.

Because we were required to take 4 hours of HR training recently, I know it is beneficial for me to use my comp time, come home and relax, as opposed to saying something utterly true, but career changing.

So. Here I am. In my underwear and a T-shirt, lying on my bed an occasionally looking at the definition of my legs. . .
In an hour i will get up and paint. But then ill go back to sleep.

Talk about a bummy day. UGH. I think its REALLY time that I came home.

Family Life...and taxes

Its tax season, almost.

Technically you can turn your tax sheet in, and get your money by V-day (valentines not vagina) in your account. IF YOU ARE WISE.

Over the years, I have done this, did it early and did it often, well...just once.

This year though :( SMH, I cant. I mean, I HOPE I don't owe anything, but man o man o man o man, these mofos are anally raping me.

I don't want to do the numbers, but like...why did they take $33k from me in fed taxes.? Totally unfair. Then another $10k or so in State taxes....(stay with me, that's like $43k) Medicare $3k, Social Security $6k, retirement $11k (even though its mine later)...total deductions...roughly $63 and then with the insurance and life insurance that pushes it to $66k.

$66k...that's $66,000. That is so wrong on so many levels. I could support a FAMILY on the amount of deductions they took from me this year alone :(

But I guess...at the end of the day, at least I have a job snarf snarf.

Now, supposedly having a family reduces how much you have to pay in taxes. So...next logical step would be for me to get married, have kids, and save money...right? Uh, not so fast. That is a fallacy in my thought process, but then again, so is paying $66K in taxes. Ugh...maybe I should have bought a house last year too.

I FAIL.

Money FAIL :(

In office breath

Dear Person who comes to my desk to discuss important business,

Please approach me with Listerine in pocket. Because honestly.... I'm offended.

Have a pleasant afternoon.

Me.